I know that in the grand scheme of things, I know very little about waiting. Many others wait notably longer stretches for things to come together as they hope, with no guarantees that they will…but here I am waiting for another babe to arrive, and the days feel long even though her arrival is right around the corner. In one sense, I feel great. I am more physically prepared for this event than I have been for any previous birth, which is a blessing. On the flip-side, however, I am spent, and I have a very limited amount of energy which doesn’t always match up with how much all the others need from mama on a given day. We’re working it out. The kids are helping a ton, and learning how to do a few more things independently when I’m unable to extract myself from my half-sleeping position the couch. My husband is leaping to the rescue when I can’t manage a meal or a kitchen cleanup. What a guy. I feel very tender, and very aware of the vulnerability this season holds for all of us. It’s not just me that is growing to accommodate this new little person. Everyone is rising to the challenge of mama running at half-steam. One of the things I love about welcoming new babies into our family is that each one of us grow a touch more tender toward each other…more willing to help, more bonded in love. It’s not flawless, by any means, but seeing my kids step up to take care of each other in little ways warms my heart and brings tears to my eyes.
One photo a week of our family throughout the year. 7/52
We did a simple photo this week at a park near to our house. One of my rules about the weekly photos is to come as we are…aside from some planning for creative shots, I’m trying to just take everyone how they’re dressed (no coordinating), hair brushed or not, make up or not (not, for me this week! I opted for a nap instead) and just capture us in all our beautiful imperfection. We typically take just enough photos to make sure we’re all in focus (typically 3-4 since I’m setting the camera on a tripod and running…err…waddling into each shot during the 10 second timer) and try make it a no-big-deal sort of affair. It’s a challenge for me to not want to tweak and re-shoot over small picky things, but in the end, I love that it’s just us, not us-made-pretty-for-the-camera. Everyone has been such a good sport, probably because of how low-key we have kept things. Anyway, there may be a week or two more of just us six, but don’t you worry, before long there will be seven faces to see.